Chapter I: Judgment of the Exile

[Tysyacha]

The MANDALORIAN WARS are over at last. REVAN and the

REPUBLIC have won, but their victory has come at a heavy

price. Intending to destroy both the Mandalorian fleet and

the Republic ships who fought against him, REVAN had told

his general, the lovely TYSY DVUKH, to give the order to

activate the formidable Mass Shadow Generator.

 

This accomplished REVAN'S goal, but it also destroyed

all life upon Malachor V--except himself and TYSY, who

unwittingly severed herself from the Force to survive.

It is for this crime that she has returned to Coruscant

to answer--for this, and for following REVAN to war...

 

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"Do you know why we've called you here?"

 

Tysy Dvukh couldn't tell which Jedi Master was asking that question.

 

She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. "Yes. I've come

back to Coruscant to answer for my crimes in the Mandalorian

Wars, and to explain why I followed Revan. I don't have much

of an opening statement--not one that's planned, at least. I

only want to tell you I'm sorry for what I did at Malachor V.

For all my life, including now, I have hated the Sith for being

mass murderers. They kill without mercy, without remorse.

 

"I admit I've become one of those killers, on a grand scale. Why

did I activate the Mass Shadow Generator, anyway? It was on

Revan's orders, but that's no excuse for unthinkingly destroying

all the life upon that planet. I still wonder if either of us considered

the full consequences of what activating that weapon would do.

 

"Master Kavar--you've always trained me to respect life, and yet

I can only think back in anguish about when the shadows swallowed

Malachor V. I've failed you, Master, and that's one of my deepest

regrets. I can only hope that you--and you, Vash, and you, Vrook,

and you, Atris and Zez Kai-Ell--will search your feelings and find it

in your hearts to forgive me. Let me rejoin you, or at least atone

for my deeds. I will humbly accept any punishment you give me."

[The Doctor]

((Kavar asked that question, I think. Bah, who cares.))

 

===+KAVAR+===

*You have not only failed me, Tysy. You have failed the Order, failed the Jedi Code.*

[arvik]

(Vrook)--(Reminder)

 

"Yes, like Kavar said, when you break apart the Jedi Code, the Jedi Code unfortunately.... Breaks apart from you.."

 

" What happened on Malachor V, do you know exactly, what it is that you have done?

[Killwithhonor]

(err, dont remember what she said so im going on what i think should be said, lol!)

((BTW Im Vash))

 

If you dont remember let me remind you, By following Revan you disobeyed all the laws of the Jedi, you disreguarded what we had said before, you killed just to kill, and you took the lives of thousands on Malachor V. When you disobeyed the Jedi Code and you disobeyed our warning. By doing so you abondoned the Jedi Code, the council and most of all, the force.

[arvik]

"Revan was in the path of darkness. The path we tried to lure you away from. Following that path eventually leads you to pain and despair. And it is a path that is difficult to return from, without bringing some of it with you.

[The Doctor]

*You stand here before us, the only one to return to us. Tell me: why did you come back?*

[Tysyacha]

"Why did I come back?" Tysy answered, with a soft sigh. "Perhaps I should

not have. I might die at your hands, good Masters, even though it is said

that Jedi never kill their prisoners. Perhaps in my case, the words of Bastila

Shan no longer apply. Even if it does mean my death, I shall explain myself,

and why I decided to face judgment for what I did upon Malachor V.

 

"After I gave the order to activate the Mass Shadow Generator, I felt

a great well of emptiness open up inside me. It was as if I no longer

cared about anything, not even if I myself existed. I was not only

detached, but cold, colder than the polar regions of Telos. I

felt not only dead, but severed, from all life in the galaxy. It was only

then, Master Vrook, that I realized the magnitude of what I had done.

I had perished, along with the thousands of fighters at Malachor V.

 

"After sensation returned to me, and I could feel again, I was glad.

Glad that now I could finally face justice for what I'd done, and glad

that I could turn from the Dark Side forever. Was it all of me that

was engulfed by that sense of cold detachment, and thus died? Or was

it my loyalty to the former Sith Lord, Revan? I am not sure, but I do

know that by returning here, I could finally apologize for my actions."

[The Doctor]

*But why? Why do you wish to apologise? You feel you have done right by ending the war. Why apologise for that?*

[arvik]

Perhaps, is it because you do not think you should end violence through violence itself, and your guilt has been pushing you closer to the council with every step you make?

[The Doctor]

*Or perhaps you only return in fear of Revan's anger.*

[arvik]

Now answer, Tysy. Why is it that you apologize? Guilt, or fear?

[Tysyacha]

Tysy stepped forward. "Guilt, and guilt only. I am not afraid of Revan's anger,

because I hear that he, too, turned back from the Dark Side and to the Light.

When Bastila Shan tempted him on the summit of the Ancient Temple on the

Unknown World, he rejected her offer. He refused to spill the innocent blood

of Jolee Bindo and become Lord of the Sith once again. I believe that Revan

would be proud of me. He would have been ashamed if I'd not come back,

I think. Revan carried much guilt, but he repented. So do I, and will I.

 

"As for apologizing--I am not sorry for ending the Mandalorian Wars,

but for ending them in the way I did, activating the Mass Shadow

Generator. Something died within me that day, as I've said before."

 

Then she turned to the Jedi Masters. "Why did you, the Council, decide not

to follow Revan to war? He only wished to protect the thousands of lives

that were under threat from the Mandalorians. I couldn't watch the Outer

Rim burn and do nothing about it. Revan sought a call to action. I acted,

and I followed. I know that it is you who should be asking the questions,

not I, but I wish to understand your points of view as well as my own."

[arvik]

Revan betrayed us himself. After one of our own betrays us, do you expect us to turn back and follow him? You do not end violence by violence itself. Do you remember the way to find peace? Is it destrucion? I don't think so...

[Tysyacha]

((OOC: Not to be a pain in the rear, but I think you meant, 'do you expect US

(as in the Jedi Council) to turn back and follow him?' Now back to our story...))

 

Tysy nodded humbly. "I remember you telling me, Master Vrook, that if you

try to end violence with violence, then the cycle of violence will never end.

I agreed with you then, but...that was before I met Revan. Revan told all

of us who followed him that if we did not stop the Mandalorians, they would

surely destroy the galaxy. I thought so. When I followed him, I also thought

I would not find peace until the end of the war, until the Mandalorians lost.

 

"The war is over now, and the Mandalorians have lost, but have I found

peace? Far, far from it. I feel I'm further from this goal than I ever was

before. That's also part of the reason why I came back. I wanted peace,

with the Council and with myself, even if it meant going to my execution.

 

"I have two more questions for you, Masters, if you'll allow me to ask them.

Why did Revan turn to the Dark Side, and what is the way to find peace?"

[Killwithhonor]

Revan turned to the darkside because it is what consumed him, he got power hungry and took advantage of the force and he brought force upon innocent jedi, i do believe he twisted you more than needed and i believe that what you did is what you thought was right.Peace comes with peace and destruction you have brought.

[arvik]

Peace... Is a feeling that unifies. It is when there is no war, no violence, no guilt, no pain. I must ask you a similar question you asked us. Now that you have come here, do you now feal at peace?

[Tysyacha]

Tysy nodded. "I...am beginning to feel that way, but I won't fully be at peace

until I know whether you have forgiven me for the wrong I've done. I don't mean

to imply that forgiveness means a lack of penalty. I only yearn to know, with all

my heart, that you do not hate me for following Revan to war, and my final act

of destruction at Malachor V. Good Masters, tell me truly: do you hate me now?"

[XoRRoX]

(I'm Atris, right?)

 

You have done the opposite of what the Order meant.

 

Then she is completly silence.

[Tysyacha]

(OOC: Yes, you are Atris, and great response!)

 

Tysy raised an eyebrow. "Oh? What did the Order mean to do when

thousands of people who lived on the Outer Rim begged for our help?

That was why Revan sent out his first call to action, I think. Merely

wanting to go to war did not turn him all the way to the Dark Side.

It took time, deeds, and a predator's patience for that to happen.

 

"What would you have done, Master Atris, if you had been in my place?

Don't merely tell me you would have obeyed the Council. At first, that

is what I myself thought I'd do. But what if Revan's plea was so impassioned,

and so right, that you just couldn't resist it? The Jedi Order has

never shrunk from trying to help the oppressed and the weak. Neither

would you have, I think. Why didn't you join us in the Mandalorian Wars?"

[XoRRoX]

"I could resist Revan. You coulden't, because you always have been so selfish. You are not a worthy jedi! You are a..."

 

She mumbled the rest, while she took a deap breath. She looks directy on Tysy Dvukh, without doing anything.

[Tysyacha]

"I am not a worthy Jedi, I agree. I fell to the Dark Side, Master Atris,

but does it count for nothing to you that I came here to face judgment?

Selfish I may be, but do you not sense the emptiness I feel, and the

emptiness inside me, because of what I did at Malachor V? I was not

always corrupt, or at least I don't believe so. Master Kavar, would you

have trained me at all if you'd sensed the dark future I would face?"

[The Doctor]

No. However, the future is not always clear. If it were, we would have been able to stop Revan from ever joining the war.

[Tysyacha]

At this, Tysy bowed her head all the lower. "I understand, Master Kavar. If

you had never trained me as a Jedi, I might never have followed Revan, and

the destruction I caused would have been avoided. Please tell me--do you

loathe me, Master, for what I did upon Malachor V and how I betrayed the

Jedi Order? Hate may be a path to the dark side, but so is dishonesty.

 

"What was it, Master Kavar, that made you want to train me? What did you

see in me that you no longer see right now? Or, perhaps you do, but you

believe it would be better revealed through a long path of atonement?"

[arvik]

Before you answer that Kavar, I must ask you somthing. Do you remember when you were in training. Young and gullible like most of the jedis who are in training. Think of yourself in her position. Trying to make the right choice for the galaxy. She put the unification of the galaxy above her position. Tell me. Now what do you think about that. What do you think about Tysy's desicions. What are your feelings?

[Tysyacha]

Master Kavar didn't seem to be answering. Tysy guessed that perhaps he

was still thinking about his answer. She turned her head toward the Jedi,

and he gave her a slight nod. The Knight sensed that her trial was reaching

a turning point, and she wanted to give the best defense she could.

 

"I went with Revan," she explained, a genuine tear starting to form in her

left eye, "because I didn't want to ignore those who were pleading for

our help along the Outer Rim. Revan thought that the Jedi Council--"

she avoided using the word you to refer to the Masters--"had

waited too long to take action against the Mandalorians. I did not think

he was hungry for battle, but I could have been completely blind to this...

 

"I sincerely thought that following him to war was right, especially since

Revan began to win in his many offensive campaigns. The Mandalorians

didn't know what hit them when Revan came to fight! Or perhaps they

did, but they wanted to savor the bloodlust and honor of battle a bit

longer. Whatever the case may be, I obeyed his orders as my Master.

 

"Right now, my heart is weeping with guilt and remorse. Master Atris,

you call me selfish. I agree, at least in a certain way. I did not go to

war only to help those on the Outer Rim. I wanted to prove myself to

you, and to you, Vrook, and Vash, and Zez-Kai-Ell, and Kavar. I wished

to let you know that I could be a hero, when I instead became your

greatest villain! I did not mean to fall to the Dark Side, but Revan...

 

"What happened? I make no more excuses now, and I lay my soul bare

before you. If you want me to spend the rest of my life in a Force cage,

I will. However, is there a chance I might yet again serve the galaxy?

Punish me, for I deserve it, and yet I beg of you--don't take my life!"

 

Tysy was tempted to lie down flat at the Masters' feet, but not yet...