Massive Depression?

[vegietto]

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[ZePhyR]

Hotrod... You work and have classes right? You're probably around people your age for at least a few hours every day. These people are your potential friends.

 

I think that maybe you need to stop trying so hard to make friends, and let new friends come to you. Sometimes that's how the best friendships come around. You might start talking with that quiet person in the corner someday, and realize that you guys have a lot in common. You can't exactly decide who you're going be friends with all the time.

 

I've been in the same situation before. I've moved around many times over the last few years, I'm currently going to my 3rd high school. I remember what it was like, not having friends. It's kind of a helpless feeling. In fact, having friends are what makes humans comlete.

 

You also need to realize that friendships take time to develop. You can't find somebody, talk to them for a few minute and expect to hang out with them that very night. Yes, this can happen, but it's rare.

 

I've used the internet for my loneliness over the years. Mainly now I use it to talk to my friends from real life over AIM. You need to be patient. These feelings of overdoing a relationship may even be closing you out.

 

Yes, you go to school. Yes, you work. However, if you're able to get on the internet this often, you obviously have plenty of free-time in which you could use to be out meeting people. You go to college? Then you could be going to basketball games. Dances, Mixers. Whatever. Yes, it does feel wierd to go by yourself, but chances are you'll see somebody from your classes at these events. Just try sitting by them so you can have that feeling that you're there with someone you know. They won't bite. They won't care. They might even be happy to have someone else to sit by.

 

Oh, and another thing. The 'nerds' (Sorry, dunno what else to call them) have this common misconception that the world is out to get them. This is not true. Sure, a few people may say something about your masking tap glasses, your pocket calculator, your white-collar button up or even your high water slacks (Sorry again about the stereotype), but most people are not like that. The people that do this are not comfortable about themselves in one way, either about the people they hang out with or their own social status.

 

Chances are, there are people in your area just like you. Other people that feel isolated. Try to find these people, and talk to them. You may even be next door in the dorms, typing away on the computer all night feeling lonley and isolated.

 

I know what the feeling is like. I still get it deep down in my gut when I try to meet girls. You need to get comfortable with being uncomfortable. Overcome that feeling. Sieze the moment, and force yourself to do something you normally wouldn't. It's nice having friends, kind of a completing feeling. Maybe you don't accept yourself? You need to understand that everyone is unsatisfied with their looks or characteristics in one way or another. Accept yourself for who you are, and you'll be happier. Trust me.

 

I hope this helps...

[RpTheHotrod]

I don't have time for online. I posted this message roughly 4am or so...only time I can get online.

 

My college time doesn't let you talk to anyone, unless it's in the middle of class. You run from class to class, and after my last class, the college shuts down. At work, well, I work for UPS...so everyone is 25-40 or so.

 

Wake up, go to work till 4pm, college at 5:30pm till 10:00pm...college closes, drive home, do stuff I need to get done, get online late, go to sleep. Rinse and repeat. Saturday is my "errands" day, we're I'm doing my...well....errands, heh. You really don't get to meet people as friends by going to a store.

 

Just a big pain. I sometimes envy the people who are getting it so easy. It's like they are getting spoon fed, friends, cars, all that stuff, and they don't do anything for it. I have a nice car now, but I'm affording it with that busy schedule. Just bugs me sometimes.

 

Best "picture" I can think of is this... You're killing yourself to survive, then some person walks by prancing around having everything he would ever want. Now granted, some of them are responsible, just like me, but it seems they reap so much more rewards than I.

 

Guess life doesn't deal you the best cards, sometimes.

 

Believe me, I'd LOVE to be able to get out somewhere.

 

 

btw, my college advisor looked at my schedule and said, ".....You realize you're not going to have ANY social life, right?"

[C'jais]

Originally posted by RpTheHotrod

btw, my college advisor looked at my schedule and said, ".....You realize you're not going to have ANY social life, right?"

 

Now this sounds pretty true.

 

I don't know if it's at all possible, but try to cut down on your work time, since college seems to be out of the question in this regard.

 

Is it really necessary to work 24/7 like this? Do you live at home, or is the money dead important for your house/car/whatever?

 

I'm with Zephyr here, my take on it would be to attend social/hobby gatherings.

[RpTheHotrod]

I'm only making $600 a month, but the job has a ton of benefits that help...including paying for my college and medical bills.

 

Money is a huge problem, so I'm stuck living with my parents. I'm really wanting to move into an apartment as soon as possible...but my bills cost roughly $450 a month.

 

It's impossible to cut down on my work hours, or I won't be making enough.

[Acrylic]

Sometimes I feel like I have a meaning to god or something. There were about 4 times total in my lifetime that I could have died. But God saved me. My parents said that when I was small, that I said Jesus came to see me. And I dont remember, but I think, after all this time, god wants me to stay alive.

[AutoCept]

Stare at this for a few hours:

Oughta fix you up.

[Acrylic]

Originally posted by AutoCept

Stare at this for a few hours:

Oughta fix you up.

 

If that was meant as a joke, I dont think its too funny. Lots of people dont have a good time sometimes, and need advice and people to talk to. Like my post in here, about my old visions....it really interests me.