Darth_Yuthura

The sickening feeling is entirely psychological, but that's good enough for me. I just downed a few Vodkas over two days, but never lost hand/eye/coordination.

Never again.

I've felt sick over the last two days. I don't believe the sensation was worth the effects afterward.

Did I portray Yuthura's drinking 'accurately,' or did I seem to not know what I was writing? Just wondering.

The project is aimed to combine the talents of three authors to one fiction, but it is still not in progress. Ideas can't just go from the mind to the forum... it needs to pass by the other two. It might be a masterpiece, but it might die in its infancy, so just keep that in mind.

How have things been with you since your mother got back? Still grounded for life?

Network is still unreliable. If you want to talk, just be aware I can't signal that it's...

I'm sorry that I dropped out this morning without notice. My internet connection is unreliable. If you want to converse, I'll keep posting. If not, I just wanted you to know what happened.

I've also had an interest in matters of the mind, but not so much as to make a career out of it. Odds are it shows in SiD with the leadership attributes. I think that the most charismatic people are those that understand what drive people. It may be too simplistic, but every single act we take is driven by incentive.

Those that are willing to sacrifice for long term goals do so in order to postpone a reward for later. Those that play on the computer all the time have no interest in what happens tomorrow... and don't know how to cope for a future they didn't prepare for.

I guess I could understand people just by using logic, but I know it's much more elaborate than that. Some people don't aquiare values like they logically should.

I intend to keep on top of K3 when it is in progress. I'm not going to leave you two high and dry if I make a commitment. I just won't be able to churn out as much progress as I had with SiD. I have almost all the time I want now, but that will change for most of us.

I used to think it was better than watching TV or playing video games, but since it wasn't like reading... which required cognitive activity... writing was time consuming, but didn't kill the brain as fast as other activities. It just wasn't as enriching as reading or studying.

I'm not likely to throw away all of it, but I will have to start restricting how often I post or go online. I do enjoy the friendships I've developed, but I have to keep my mind on what's in front of me. I'm just telling you in advance that I'm not coming back... I'm just not going to be as consistent once September rolls around.

It's not the intoxicant... it's acting in ways that poison our souls slowly. I've got many habits that are just as bad as drinking... writing is actually one of them.

I've invested a lot of time into SiD when I should have been keeping on top of my studies... there were consequences from it. This year, I've got to restrict how much time I invest to such a trivial thing. As enjoyable as it is, I can't let it take over.

Good... more incentive to give up alcohol. The next time you pick up that shot glass, wine bottle, can or beer... remember that night and throw them at the mirror. lol

Wasting time going back and forth, so I'll just post so you don't have to wait.

How was your holiday by yourself? How many people did you invite to that party? Did the master(s) of the house have a 'fit of rage'?

Anyway... I am glad that you are deciding to turn away from it (as well). You have my full confidence.

Although I have not experienced the relief or escape myself, I know what it's like to have an escape that whittles away your soul. I guess that Yuthura has turned away too easily, but I based it on my Grandfather who quit smoking in a similar manner.

I would suggest that you just focus on conquering it one day at a time... don't think about tomorrow... just focus on today. That's one thing that I've tried doing is realize that if I am willing to lose the current moment, I am willing to lose all future moments... if that helps.

Don't worry, I can't stand the stuff. I also want to experience life in all it's agonizing glory. I don't want to dull the sensation in any way.

Still... it is what everyone else does and I would be an outcast to never drink. It's not allowed in America!

You know that I've been sober for 23 years and then started in the last week?!

K3 is not a social group... It's to coordinate a group project. When it starts coming out, you'll see what it's about. For now... you likely don't want me to reveal any spoilers.

Anyway... been busy with the last few weeks of summer. I've been sober for 23 years and went and did a stupid thing like surrendering to peer pressure. I don't know how old you are, but if you haven't started drinking yet... don't! Life is a precious thing; don't dull the sensation in any way.

Anyway, that may be more than you meant by 'howya doing?'

"Take some advice from your story, you might find the answer there."

Good Idea! I think the right path is to delete my story, insult all my friends(so they'll never talk to me even if I try to contact them), and post offensive content (So I'll never be welcome again), and then focus all my effort back on my life.

Is that what you're suggesting?!

I never tire of hearing you talk. Your written words, however have a tendency to make me...

...appreciate globalization. (connecting with the rest of the world)

Anyway, good morning.

That's why it might be more dramatic. I haven't committed to anything, so I'm not spoiling what's yet to come. You made the easier/harder remark and now I have to rethink my approach. I guess the best think would be to leave my options open for as long as I can. Now that she has a little brat to worry about, I have some time to think and meditate on the final choice. lol

Your choice. Just remember that you should only do it if it's satisfying. If you are frustrated, then you should not feel obligated by anything other than yourself. The smartest or most desirable path is not always the most difficult, but it shouldn't be the easiest.

But you can do whatever you choose. All I can do is influence your choice.

You're good at keeping up a conversation... now I had another question.

I've been considering how to solve the Council problem. It might be more interesting to realize there was more to Vrook than Yuthura was aware of. If she came to feel impish compared to them... at least then she understands that she judged them to harshly... except Atris.

I'm just suggesting that you finish the chapter in it's rough condition and come back later to finish it. If I had not accepted poor work for two of my chapters, I would have been to mentally exausted and frustrated if I had finished them properly. I went back when I had the inspiration, but I felt I had to keep progressing, or I would lose ambition. That's just me.

One last question on SiD: What did you think when Yuthura challenged Vrook? I've always wanted to do that when my football coaches did a similar punishment. They didn't take part in the punishment and they were part of the team! If they wouldn't show a proper example, then why follow them?

Was it something you could see her doing... for such a trivial thing?

Well if it's too draining, then you should try to get done with it as soon as possible so you can have the freedom to keep going from the next point in the story. I'm stuck in my plot and will have to come up with a means to get it done quickly and likely not very well... at least then I can keep going.

I'm not very literate in 'eerie places' either, so I'll just say I wouldn't like standing in that pie shop in London.