Burnseyy

I don't really believe in fate, as such, just that there is something (not a god... no) that presents us with 'signs' or certain paths, but at the end of the day, it's all down to our decisions to choose the right thing. I don't leave everything down to 'fate', though. If I believe something to be right, I'll go ahead with it, and if it's wrong, I'll learn from it, but if it's right, I'll come away happy. Either way, I benefit.

I've never really looked up to anyone, because I figure that I'd rather mould myself into the person I want to be, rather than use the example of someone else. Most people look up to 'fashion designers' or 'actors' who are rich and famous, which I never really understood, to be fair. Though, the fact that you've picked heroes like those, is a good thing. I wish I did have someone to look up to, sometimes, but I've always been the older sister, the one who gives advice, and the one with 'different' ambition, so I can't really compromise lol.

When I was young, I'm not sure why, but I thought that I could change the world and make it a better place, or something. It's strange because when I thought this, I realised I had a gift, if you will, in writing, and decided not to ignore it. I thought that was a sign - it was during my mock SATs (exams) when I was 10, and the teacher said it was a great piece, and others should use it as an example for the actual exams. I want to make a difference still, and I believe that writing my way to it, is my 'purpose'. All sounds very cheesy and cliche, but I believe it lol

You look up to me? I've never really had someone tell me that before. Though I'm flattered lol

Simply because people go about things differently, doesn't mean they can't be similar, in other ways. I regret ever starting drinking, though I'm young, and I guess I can't really handle it well. It's not everything, anyway.

It has been good talking, for me too. I don't think I've ever had conversation with anyone quite like you, so it's sort of refreshing I guess. A big change from the big social scene, and obsessions with fashion I guess lol. I told my friends about the whole picture of my cats been torn scenario - one laughed, and one said it was easily replacable. I don't think I'd ever been so insulted. Again, it's good to talk and actually be trusted with this sort of information.

And I agree, people who choose to drift through life, conforming to normality, and doing nothing to change it haven't really achieved anything. The people who want to change, make good changes, help others and rise above the 'perfect' picture, are the ones who excel. Or so I believe.

I believe that everything happens for a reason, and even if that reason was not the persons intent, it happens. Maybe it was a 'sign' of sorts, to get your life on track. I really hate it when people don't want to improve themselves, but rather soak up the attention of everyone else.

During my party, it was going fine, until I found a picture on the floor of my, now dead, cat, and people had stepped all over it, and scratched it so much, it was almost impossible to make out. I don't think I've ever been so upset before, and it was onlyt a picture. It made me think of what I had done, and what I was doing to the trust with my family. I hate to think of a really important picture being a mere 'sign', but I think it was.

Listeners are better than speakers, I think, because speakers can say what they want and never consider anyone else, but listeners are like the people 'behind the scenes' running everything. That's how I see it, anyway. Of course you've got to speak up lol but what's speaking up without listening? Perhaps that's what's the problem with our governments.

Well, I think it's great that you took something away from it, how ever horrible it must have been. Not many people do that. They either get bogged down in what has happened, or don't care. I can't say my cat was the only pet I've ever taken to, but he was there my whole life, and when he died, that was a shock. I was only about eleven, and didn't really expect it, and thankfully it was by natural causes.

Though I do understand, it leaves an emptiness, or a blank space where it once was, and pets are excellent listeners and very loyal lol I don't take these sorts of things too well, either, but I figure I'm allowed to, since I've dealt with everything else.

My cat died, too, so I understand what you mean by it 'hitting you hard', but I didn't think it was a life altering time in my life. Though, I have had a few harsh truths shown to me. Like the party for example. I think I started becomming like your younger self, where I thought I was liked, better than I actually was, y'know, perhaps a little vain. But that party was really a mental slap that made me realise that I was changing. My friends said it was a change for the 'best', but how is it a change for the best when you don't even like yourself?

I agree... you either fail or improve if you go to college. I think most people in our college improve, though, because it filters out the slackers and the non-carers, which aids the overall 'atmosphere' in the class room. I'm going to the best non-private, non-costs-a-lot-of-money in England, so I'm quite pleased with that.

Yeah, there's adverts of "the royal navy" and the army, etc. saying stuff like 'It's your time to stand' or whatever. It makes it sound fun, interesting and dangerous, which most guys tend to go for, I guess, stereotypically. It's so pathetic.

It doesn't help that England seems to be suffering in it's education - I think an average CV (resume) for British people is mostly fails. So they don't know much about the governments intrusion on the media, and how they use buzzwords and propaganda to interest it's audience.

Hey, at least we're still around!

Ah, I was never popular. I had many 'friends' at the end of my last year in school, but before that I was the 'strange girl who hangs around with boys'. I was nothing like any girl in school, but as the guys got older, they got stronger, so I was sort of in the middle of both groups. Plus, my guy friends all took likings to the girls I'd made friends with - obviously they didn't for me, because I was a friend, and glad, too! - and decided it was fun to favour them over me. Or so it felt like that, at times.

I'm one of those people who others think 'look relaxed', but chances are, that's either just a facade, they're drunk, or they're bored. I think you're bound to change drastically from 16-23 is it?

Something tells me that if the US army was as small as Britain's, it wouldn't be so successful. What I don't get is how SO many people can take joy out of the army. It's almost as if guys feel it's their duty to WANT to be part of the army - if not, they're not good enough. It's weird.

I can understand the cooking and medical army business, because it's good pay, and for a good cause, but actually fighting? I think it's selfish. The leaders take their own people to war, with risk of death, whilst there's family members and friends at home who need them more than a petty war does.

Who starts these wars anyway?

I want a word with them.

I guess it sounds kind of sad, when you hear a 16 year old, who should be enjoying life, is drinking. Though, I've gotten a balance. I'm not going to go out of my way to be popular, because I don't think there's any benefits. I'm more alone than I realised, which is a scary thing. I think I have about 2 good friends... I've always been disliked for one reason or another

K3 does require the person to meet expectations, more, but at least it's relieving that we don't have to write the whole thing on our own. And I rather like the idea of working in a team... though in school, I have been known to disagree a lot, in groups, and want my idea to be THE idea. I'm not a leader, though, I'm just the 'ideas'.

WWII was not really England's battle, so I recall. I haven't thought about it since 3 years ago, in History, but they came in pretty late. Perhaps our text books big us up, so we get a biased report of the events, but then again, I guess every country does.

England used to conquer many places, long ago, but now it's all guns. I hear that the US army is really, really poor, in the sense that they've accidentally killed their own troops, like in jets and so on - or so news reports have said.

We might have been invaded, but we recovered, sure enough. Our language has travelled the world, and we still have our own money (£)... not that I agree invading another country for the sheer thrill of it, is respectable. Just the fact a tiny country was able to do it lol

You lead a very strange social life lol but most 'social' people think the concept of reading is stupid, pointless and boring. Then they realise, by the time they come to get a job, they don't know what 'big words' mean. :tut:

I think stories tend to do that. If you're working on a project, and a NEW, big thing comes out, you just want to work on that. Because we all like 'new' things, whether we like to admit it or not.

I haven't read your last chapter yet - I've gone into a lazy state, which has seriously dragged my writing back. But I'm almost done with The Huntress, and I'll be starting chapter 7 of QFR soon... Of course, they come after my part in K3.

I've just dropped History, and gladly, too, since all we were learning about for 2 years straight, was agriculture and towns. God, I needed out of there.

Every time someone provoked England into a war, they always lost lol I don't remember any war we've actually lost, unless it was long ago. I think we went to war with France and lost, at one point, but that was in Medieval times.

Anyway! Yes, I was hoping for a novel, but no matter, I'll just look at the shelf and pick up the best sounding blurb. Thanks anyway.

Every time I go on holiday, I buy a new book to read on the plane/in the airport.

Any suggestions on what to buy?

I've discovered that the majority of people who like cheese hate tomatoes, and people who like tomatoes, hate cheese. I pay too much attention to small detail.

wow, that IS a lot of alcohol. foreign places tend to have those big kicks in drinks!

ps. redbull is delicious.

At least there's no more harry potter to have brainfarts about... but at a terrible cost.

Oh he is talking, I just didn't think two conversations at once was a bad thing

Huh?

Alright then.

you hate tomatoes? How?! Let me guess, you're a cheese lover, right?

My oh my, a bar that serves minors. your friends state was me at my party - kept falling over, and for some of it I couldn't even stand. I had too much. And I'm never EVER drinking strongbow AGAIN. So I guess it's just wkd and smirnoff for me - very rarely, at that! Have fun with your booze.

We don't have 'APs' but we had a 'gifted and talented' list, where people would get special privileges... I was on that list. teehee. But I never got any of said privileges! Damn lying teachers.

Aw poor Neville! They just suited so well... from Luna's obsession with enormous lion hats, to Neville's obsession with plants. I'd complain to JKR, but she'd probably just e-mail me another brainfart. Honest to god. I think it's sadder when the animals (that includes Dobby lol) die, because they had no choice. Like Hedwig. Bless her snowy white coat. ^^

I imagine Bastila would argue over anything that directly had anything to do with the order. I guess if Bastila had followed it her whole life, and now half of it was dead/on the dark side, she'd be reluctant to believe it.

So yes, maybe.

It would be good to have two conflicting characters in the opening few chapters - it would add to the entertainment, since no one wants everyone to 'just get along'

Damn you, you'll have two of my characters at once!

Jokes.

I get this image of a rogue, purple twi'lek jumping angrily in puddles of fuel... I have an 'interesting' imagination.

and yeah, it all sounds good, planned out well - definitely enough to convince readers you know what you're doing. I say go for it.

I tend not to think too much about the future, but now I'm starting to. I don't know any pills that definitely work - they can all have terrible symptoms from what I've heard... apparently one of ambien can be forgetting parts of your day/week/life! I don't really like the idea of that.

Anyway, moving on.

It would make more sense to meet Bao first, yes. So are we going with Yuthura somehow disabling his ship, or stealing it, so the fuel can't be used for money to, later, buy slaves?

I guess there's some truth in that - I remember during my GCSEs I used to just lie awake thinking I had to sleep, but I couldn't. Maybe when an exam rolls round, I'll try them out, but only if it's necessary.

Thanks for the concern. people my age just tend to go 'oh, well, i'm sure you'll live' >_> lol yeah I'll live, but is that helpful? Not at all.

I tired myself out today, because I got stuck in town due to like a bus crash in the buslane... so I had to walk home. That took some time.

Alright. Thanks for the advice and such. I'm going to do just that - try to sleep again.

Good night/morning.

Hmm, maybe a bit of Enya will do the trick lol

I'm hoping this holiday will relax me, enough, to get my sleeping back to normal for college. And once I'm back, I'll have my GCSE results... so there won't be a lot of worry besides my first day, and the realisation I've lost a lot of friends by leaving school.

What I want to know, is how animals hibernate. Wow, they must have a lot of pills.

we're resorting to knocking me out now?

If only that worked! Not that I've tried whacking myself over the head with a big book... yet.

I read your story in some hope it would make me tired (No, I'm not saying I think your story is boring) but it evidently didn't work

One of my friends got on 'relaxation pills' whatever they were, I don't know, but it changed who she was. I don't like pills that alter your mood, or anything like that, because it can do that kind of thing.

Oh don't worry about it - lots of guys I know have taken something a 'little to literal', so to speak.

I guess there's things on my mind I always think too much. Though I did drink tea at 8pm, it shouldn't last this long, should it?! And trust me, you don't want my energy...

Hmm, well I've been through enough addictions to last me a lifetime, I don't need another! It's good you got off it, though. Not many people want to give things up. Speaking of which, I've started seeing signs of having no alcohol >_> which seriously doesn't help with the sleep.