igyman Posted March 5, 2007 Share Posted March 5, 2007 This story has mingled in my mind for the last few days and I've decided to finally put it to virtual paper and post it. It has absolutely nothing to do with any of my previous fics, so everyone who likes stories that show the main character's mind can enjoy this. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
igyman Posted March 5, 2007 Author Share Posted March 5, 2007 Home Alone at last. Today's classes are done and I can finally get some well deserved rest. Well deserved... The fatigue is starting to get to me, I am repeating myself without even realizing it. Aaahhh, bed, sweet bed. If only the Jedi Temple wasn't such a huge structure, if only I was already in my room. Hmmm, now that I think about it, I'm not sure I want to be in my room at all. The classes I had today didn't differ much from the ones I've had so far. It was the same story over and over again, the Masters simply used different words. The message, the point was the same though. Beware of the Dark Side. The Masters spoke of the Jedi's calling, of the Jedi Code and its importance. They ranted endlessly about the dangers of feelings. A Jedi needs to control them, they said, lest they drag him to the Dark Side. The Light is the only true path according to them, the Darkness is deceiving and perverse. My own Master said to me once that a good Jedi can't allow himself to feel, because feelings, he said, prevent a Jedi to achieve his true potential. They prevent him to become a true emissary of the Light. I have pondered often on my Master's words, mostly when we were out on a mission, but the more I think about them the more they sound like a load of rubbish. My Master also said that the Jedi protect the innocent and pure hearted and punish the evil, thus reducing the influence the Dark Side has on the galaxy. Yet more... rubbish. I have went on dozens of missions with my Master and I have yet to see a person with a pure heart, how my Master so eloquently decided to put it. Sure, the bandits and crime lords we put away are the worst scum of the galaxy, but even those we are supposed to deem innocent are in fact far from it. I have felt it in them. Every time me and my Master talked to someone. I have felt the little white lies coming out of their mouths. There were so many lies that the person who speaks them doesn't even know the difference between them and the truth. Ah, how sad it is that the great Jedi Masters don't care about those lies, since I doubt they can't feel them, if I, a mere Padawan, can. I couldn't always feel what I can now. My senses sharpened over time. Now I don't even need to concentrate to know what hides in a person's heart. All it takes is a look, but most of the time I don't like what I see. It is truly saddening, the amount of darkness that exists here, on Coruscant alone. I dare not think about its true proportions in our galaxy. The darkness is here. Even the city streets are filled with it. I have seen it. Every person I look at, while walking down one of the many busy streets of Coruscant... Every mind I peak into, even in the mind of a child, I see nothing but darkness. Lately the feeling has become even more terrifying. I don't just feel their darkness anymore, I can see it, manifesting itself to me in forms of horrifying visions. Ah, I am finally at my own door. A good night sleep will clear things up for me. It has helped, so far. I am not entirely sure about this time, though. Another terrible vision makes me uneasy as I walk into my room. I look through the huge window and instead of a bright and vibrant city with blue skies and beautiful tall buildings, I see a... perverse and ruined place, with blood red sky and black skyscrapers engulfed in flames. Strange dark creatures fly in flocks between them, carrying rotting corpses and dropping them on the masses in the streets. The screams I hear next drop me on my back. From my bed I stare at the ceiling of my room and watch it dissolve into nothingness as it reveals the blood red sky once again. This isn't the first vision of its kind that I've had, but it's definitely the most intense. I can actually hear a whisper amongst the screams, calling to me. So far I have managed to ignore the call, but now... My eyes are opened. I have always considered myself different than the other Padawans and now I know why. Now I know why everything felt so unnatural to me. I have kept my strange power and my visions a secret, I thought it was a curse, but it was in fact the greatest of blessings. The Jedi Masters... the worst bunch of hypocrites. They preach the suppression of feelings and yet they themselves don't suppress them, they simply hide them well from others. I realize now that the Light the Order preaches is something completely unnatural to most living things. Every single heart has a small seed of darkness inside and it is up to us to decide how big it will grow. Even the wisest Jedi Masters have it, but they aren't letting it sprout. I know, I have seen it deep in their hearts. I can't stay in this palace of lies anymore. I quickly pack my things and sneak out through the back entrance of the Temple. Good riddance to all you hypocrites! I walk away slowly, losing myself in the crowded street and as I stand there, in the mass of mutilated beings, I look to the red sky to see the flock of black demons fly once more between the burning skyscrapers. A smile makes its way to my face, a feeling I haven't experienced in a long time. I feel... at home. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Relenzo2 Posted March 5, 2007 Share Posted March 5, 2007 It'd be nice if a had a clue who the heck this was about. It's not actually that easy to guess. But I'm thinking "Reven" here. Nice Inside the Minds of the Criminally Insane. Neat. I would say "Waiting for next chapter" but the short tag on teh title I assume means there won't be one. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
igyman Posted March 5, 2007 Author Share Posted March 5, 2007 Nope, this is a short fic. As for the main character, I intentionally left him unnamed for now, it's not supposed to be Revan, but who knows, if I get a good idea I might do another fic with this character and I'll have to think of a name for him then. Thanks for the comment and I'm glad you liked it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bee Hoon Posted March 7, 2007 Share Posted March 7, 2007 There were a few grammatical errors, but the story was good:) And so another one falls... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Diego Varen Posted March 7, 2007 Share Posted March 7, 2007 Another good Short Fic from good old igy. Will it be posted in the Jedi Archives? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
igyman Posted March 7, 2007 Author Share Posted March 7, 2007 It will be, but probably in a day or two, when I edit out every grammar error I can find. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fredi Posted March 7, 2007 Share Posted March 7, 2007 And so another one falls...? , well beehoon o don’t think he falls , well that will provably be decided by the author igyman , but I think that this padawan really see the conflict that the jedi council has , No one is pure , I think this jedi turned more like a Grey Jedi than a dark jedi , He see the council like Joole Bindo sees it , Great fic , I hope to see more, I liked it and I am anxious to know this expadawan name and see more of you’re stories. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
igyman Posted March 7, 2007 Author Share Posted March 7, 2007 Thanks for the comment. I'm glad you liked it. I am already getting some sketches of ideas about more short fics with this character, possibly a chronicles of short fics, but until I have a good idea of how to write the story and what the plot would be, it only remains a sketch in my head. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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