El Sitherino Posted November 5, 2003 Share Posted November 5, 2003 For some reason I just feel like today I'm gonna die.. I don't know why... *kicks self for rhyme* I just felt weird today. I went to school today and I just felt... nothing except that something bad, really bad, is going to happen. I went to my first class as usual then came second class, I felt like sitting outside and having a coke so I bought a cherry coke and I sat infront of the school instead of going to science class. Well they told me to go into the office and talk, I wasn't finished with my coke. I went with them anyways, I sat in the office and started talking about how I just didn't care anymore and that I just felt like something was going to happen and that I just felt like sitting outside, then comes in the assistant principle who's always an asshole, he asks me to hand over my coke, I politely said I would rather finish it then he told me to give it to him again, I asked why he wanted my coke instead of buying his own, he told me I'm not supposed to have it in class. Well I told him I wasn't in class so his point was moot, he then fussed at me to give him the coke and I told him "IT'S MY F*CKING COKE!", I don't know why I yelled that, I just didn't wish to give him my coke and I've been on edge lately. Things have just been bothering me lately. I told them I wished to leave and I apologized for yelling and cursing at him and they said I couldn't go as I was walking towards the doorway, the assistant principle blocked the doorway with his body and I tried to slink past, he wouldn't move, I didn't wish to do anything rash or have to use force so I sat back down and told them I wished to just leave and the assistant principle made his way behind the desk and I chose my moment to leave at a point where I had opportunity to not make any more of a scene. They asked where I was going and I told them I was going home. (I'm at home right now) I still feel like something going to happen. I think something is going to happen to me, like I'll die or get badly hurt. I don't really know how or when or anything. say whatever you want I just need to talk to someone but since I'm on my moms mac it's not letting me on msn messenger or AIM Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Swoosh Posted November 5, 2003 Share Posted November 5, 2003 I can certainly understand not wanting to go to class...I'm skipping one right now actually . But, you can't really say that you think you're going to die today unless you plan on doing something that will result in you dying. All I can say is that I think everyone who is in high school feels this way at one point or another. Most people go on and try to find a solution to what's bothering them. A few just give up on themselves and everyone that loves them. Don't be selfish and do something to yourself...it's important for you to try as hard as you can to live a good life because many people love you and have invested so much in you. Call your mom or a friend who you can talk to...sometimes just having someone to talk to will solve some of your problems. But you have to find it within yourself to be motivated to get over all of them. I hope this helped Swoosh Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
El Sitherino Posted November 5, 2003 Author Share Posted November 5, 2003 yar, why does everyone think I'm gonna commit suicide? If anything I'd kill the people pissing me off but I'm not going to do either. I didn't really want to skip class I just felt like sitting outside. But to late for that now :/ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jared Posted November 5, 2003 Share Posted November 5, 2003 I know how that feels....I have felt the same way in the past. Once you tell someone, and they actually do care.... instead of pretending...it makes life seem better. I know, that without my friend julie to talk to...I dunno what the hell I would do...I couldnt handle some of that crap I have to deal with every day at school. The principal is an ass, and so are most of the teachers. I ditched for like 5 months and got kicked out a few years ago at my high school, back when I was in 9th grade. I didnt quite know why, but I just...thought I was going to die. For some reason..... I just wanted to die. The feeling comes and goes still....but...being able to tell someone is the only way to be comforted. hmmm....anyways...kinda wrote alot more than I was intending...eh..well thats my 2 cents. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Swoosh Posted November 5, 2003 Share Posted November 5, 2003 I guess it is something that will pass...I used to have feelings like this too...but that was over 4 years ago, and they are so distant from my memory that I hardl even remember them. I think that's something you could look forward to...eventually you'll get over this feeling and understand what the best thing to do is. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mex Posted November 5, 2003 Share Posted November 5, 2003 Damn if I were you I would have lost it if that teacher got in my way, I would have shoved him/her out of the way well I'm just lucky that I have not been in a situation like that. Something must be bugging you if you felt like that so try tell us if any assholes pissing you off and we could offer you some advice if you need it. [i'm starting to sound like a social worker. Ack my worse nightmare! ] Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
El Sitherino Posted November 5, 2003 Author Share Posted November 5, 2003 actually I'm grounded right now and I'm not even supposed to be on the computer, I can't call my friends because I have no cell phone to program numbers in because I'm horrible at remembering numbers and I always lose the paper the numbers are written on so... basically when the computer is gone I lose all contact to the outside world except for school which I don't see my friends there much anyways so f*ck it. My parents fail to realize how the computer affects me but I've given up on caring about my computer so I just say screw it I'll just grow angry and lonely. Maybe I can cause an incident and the cops will shoot me by "accident" Oh my dad just came over here and told me that I'm suspended. I guess it's for the best. *shrug* Tommorow is a b day and that's the one day I have a class with some of my friends who I talk to about everything. Oh well, opportunity lost. maybe I'll be kicked out soon. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nerd_Annhilator Posted November 5, 2003 Share Posted November 5, 2003 hmmm....My self-esteem lowers as soon as I enter the doors to the school. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mex Posted November 5, 2003 Share Posted November 5, 2003 Originally posted by InsaneSith Oh my dad just came over here and told me that I'm suspended. I guess it's for the best. *shrug* Tommorow is a b day and that's the one day I have a class with some of my friends who I talk to about everything. Oh well, opportunity lost. maybe I'll be kicked out soon. Suspended? What the holy ****? Thats total ****! I would'nt take that from no **** princible! Bah I'm not you but I would get a few friends to kick the **** out of that guy. And your grounded? Your parents are out of it.. Oh I wish I lived near you, I would give your parents a good talking to. Sorry but that just really pisses me off badly. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TiE23 Posted November 6, 2003 Share Posted November 6, 2003 Hmmm, Karma? Well, for the "Fell like I am gonna die" thing, I am always afraid that I have live thretaning >disesases<(sp-lol) such as cancer or tumors, OMG, I have been afraid that I am gonna die one night in my bed from cancer or something.... And this whole thing started when I looked in a disease and treatment book.... Well, one day I am gonna get cancer, most likley colon cancer, because my grandma had it and survived, and both of my grandpas had it, and both died but i still had a step grandpa who is cool its a 376,014,240,000:1 chance that you are gonna die in 60 minutes... Ummm, I think Sleep well No rain, no rainbows! TiE Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KBell Posted November 6, 2003 Share Posted November 6, 2003 arg, more depressing threads! Cheer up IS, things will get better, you're going through a time that everyone goes through, it just depends on the way you handle it. You handle it by posting threads on LF, so i guess this is your medicine Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
El Sitherino Posted November 6, 2003 Author Share Posted November 6, 2003 he's an asshole, not to mention I think he's the reincarnate of hitler. He looks JUST like him... it's very scary.:| Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RoxStar Posted November 6, 2003 Share Posted November 6, 2003 So... how are you using the computer? Oh, and anyone can leave and ener a public facility if they so choose. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ZBomber Posted November 6, 2003 Share Posted November 6, 2003 Maybe I can cause an incident and the cops will shoot me by "accident" Thats why people think your gonna commit suicide. You seem kinda happy at the thought... It was just a coke, why not give it to him, and buy a new one? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tyrion Posted November 6, 2003 Share Posted November 6, 2003 Originally posted by ZBomber It was just a coke, why not give it to him, and buy a new one? It's the principle of the matter, you dolt. Well, IS, just think of it this way. Once you get out of Highschool(which isnt long, 4 years compared to 60 years...), you can get your own job(wether it'd be at the gas station or as a writer). Besides, once you get out of that school you can finally say you walked through Hell and lived. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
El Sitherino Posted November 6, 2003 Author Share Posted November 6, 2003 Originally posted by ZBomber Thats why people think your gonna commit suicide. You seem kinda happy at the thought... It was just a coke, why not give it to him, and buy a new one? uhmm due to the fact that I'm poor and that was all the money I have. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kain Posted November 6, 2003 Share Posted November 6, 2003 I feel that Sith! Back in my junior year of high school, I always got into **** for the dumbest things. And I blew up on the faculty too! I felt down and out all the time too. Luckily, I had a teacher who cared enough to help me through my troubled times. He retired last year, though and moved to Chillicothy, Ohio. What I'm saying is lash out all you need to. Eventually someone'll quit screaming at you and actually listen to your problems and help you out. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mex Posted November 6, 2003 Share Posted November 6, 2003 Originally posted by Kain I feel that Sith! Back in my junior year of high school, I always got into **** for the dumbest things. And I blew up on the faculty too! I felt down and out all the time too. Luckily, I had a teacher who cared enough to help me through my troubled times. He retired last year, though and moved to Chillicothy, Ohio. What I'm saying is lash out all you need to. Eventually someone'll quit screaming at you and actually listen to your problems and help you out. Bah the teachers at my school are total idiots. I was in the playground talking to friends about stuff and then I see a teacher and go over to him, then he does not warn me that there is some poo on the floor so naturally I step in it. The dip started laughing at me so I shouted at him to get me some tissue to wipe it off and he's just stood there laughing like hell! So I walk to the front gate and I got poo all over my foot and then the head teacher says "What are you doing" so I keep on walking and she tries to grab me but I leg it home. I don't honestly see why school's are so uncaring and nasty. People like them cause depression, boredom, hate and alot of other nasty things. I hate school. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hellfire Jedi Posted November 6, 2003 Share Posted November 6, 2003 Join the club. School sucks. I do feel like today, something is gonna happen too Insane. Its a weird feeling...but its firmiliar in a strange way. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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