El Sitherino Posted May 20, 2003 Share Posted May 20, 2003 do you ever feel like you might just go homocidal on people? i mean like people piss you off so much you actually visualize ripping off their head or something. i don't know i just seem to be getting pissed off more easily. like im walkin in the hallway and some people just stop and start talking, well this is making me late for class. (not big deal but still) well thats just a little thing that adds to the stack. then i get some people running into me calling me a b*tch. and many things like that. then i get hit (on purpose). sometimes, after going through this everyday, i feel like i could just go insane and kill someone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Acrylic Posted May 20, 2003 Share Posted May 20, 2003 Originally posted by InsaneSith do you ever feel like you might just go homocidal on people? i mean like people piss you off so much you actually visualize ripping off their head or something. i don't know i just seem to be getting pissed off more easily. like im walkin in the hallway and some people just stop and start talking, well this is making me late for class. (not big deal but still) well thats just a little thing that adds to the stack. then i get some people running into me calling me a b*tch. and many things like that. then i get hit (on purpose). sometimes, after going through this everyday, i feel like i could just go insane and kill someone. Same with me too. Theres this one kids, same height as me, but he has big arms ) Anyways, I just wanna kill him. One day, me and (I have a tough friend) we're going to gang up on him if hes ever alone and kick his ass into the pavement. It'll make me feel better after years of getting picked on or teased. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
obi Posted May 20, 2003 Share Posted May 20, 2003 I'm sure we've all actually visualized killing someone. Like, tonight, a boy gave me the bird at church. AT CHURCH. Otherwise I would have ignored him, but at church? Fahgehtaboudit! Anyway, thank God we have the ability to supress our emotions in times of need. I owuld have killed him. I really would have. Slap me in the face, it would have been better. A LOT better. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pisces Posted May 20, 2003 Share Posted May 20, 2003 Yeah. I just shrug off so much stuff over the day that little things just start to make me extremely pissed. Like I know I shouldn't be as angry as Iam but I can't help it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Acrylic Posted May 20, 2003 Share Posted May 20, 2003 Originally posted by obi-wan13 I'm sure we've all actually visualized killing someone. Like, tonight, a boy gave me the bird at church. AT CHURCH. Otherwise I would have ignored him, but at church? Fahgehtaboudit! Anyway, thank God we have the ability to supress our emotions in times of need. I owuld have killed him. I really would have. Slap me in the face, it would have been better. A LOT better. Oh my God. At church? Thats aweful.......like you said, it wouldnt be big of a deal anywhere else...but Church is God's house...wow. Bad people....bad blood I guess.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
El Sitherino Posted May 20, 2003 Author Share Posted May 20, 2003 well if anyone flipped me the bird i'd call them a crabapple. well where i come from, texas, crabapple isnt an insult, but it will be soon. *laughs maniacly until a flying monkey mango hits him in head* yeah. crab apples taste funny. anyways little things don't bother me unless i have alot of anger built up. i can hear myself ticking like a bomb when i got built up anger. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pink Monkey Posted May 20, 2003 Share Posted May 20, 2003 Human beings suck at times. When they annoy me, I just squish them--why develop coronary disease over the meager squallings of hominids? If you aren't the walking damned incarnation of a dead Vulcan space pirate from an evil alternate universe, however, your choices are somewhat less. Perhaps you could blow stuff up in videogames or hit something in the back yard with a big stick to release frustration... vlr Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Darth Groovy Posted May 20, 2003 Share Posted May 20, 2003 Actually I am glad you posted this, because I was speaking with a couple of LF members about this on LF the other night. I do not consider myself a violent person, but if I am provocted enough, I do tend to loose control of my feelings and become very violent. When I was in junior high, I was a fat kid, and an English major (enrolled in advanced English classes), I got picked on alot on a daily basis, and would come home daily, virtually exausted from the emotianal elements, and would go to school the next day with a massive stomach ache from the nerves. I had many very vivid dreams of mowing down the school, both students and faculty with a vicker's machine gun, but fortunately never acted on that. Junior High was only 2 years, but 2 years of sheer Hell, however, by the time I got to High School, I had lost a considerable amount of weight, and the same people that gave me so much trouble, were becomeing my freinds. Very early into my freshman year, I moved, and being very thin, I settled into school nicely, with hardly any hassles. It was great. My sophmore year, I had to move again, to another school, and this was a tougher school, but found that as long as I kept my mouth shut, I was in no immediate danger. I had only one skirmish at this school, where an African American bully in my algebra class decided to walk up behind me and slap me on the back of the head so hard, that my glasses flew off my head and onto the floor, something inside me snapped, and I rushed the kid at full speed throwing him up against the blackboard and pounded the crap out of his face with both of my fists. The moment can best be described as Ralphie from A Christmas Story, where he jumps on Scott Farcas and pounds the crap out of him. The teacher of that class, managed to pull me off of him, and we were both sent to the Dean. I had never been sent to the Dean before, and the Dean had recognized me as a reporter for the High School Newspaper and wanted to know "why the Hell" I was in the Dean's office. Then something magical happened. I saw the other kid I pounded walk past the office, and he had two black eyes, where this kid had barely a hit on me at all, because I had taken him by extreme surprise. I told the Dean exactly what happened, and he told me this: "As a father, I would tell you to kick his ass, however, as a Dean, I have to tell you to report such things to me, and since I am suspending him, I also have no choice but to suspend you as well...please stay out of trouble from now on..." I got a three day suspension, and my parents were not even mad at me. When I came back, I had been dropped from the class, but did not have to make it up, and that kid who attacked me, never even looked at me crossed eyed again. The next fight I was ever in occured about three years later, this kid in a grocery store I worked in, had accused me of playing hookey, when I had called in the day before, and claimed he had to do all of my work. I told him, it was none of his business why I was absent and he told me to meet him back by the produce cooler. There we are in the cooler, and I told him to take back his comments, and his response was "are you gonna hit me, or kiss me?" at that point I landed one square in his jaw, and he fell to the floor, then I picked him up and kept punching him in the face, at this point he was bleeding, and other employees were looking on. After chants from them, I dropped him on the ground, after which he got up and said; "is that all you got?". Keep in mind, that at this point his shirt was torn, and he was bleeding all over himself, I told him; "your not even worth the effort..." From that day on, the people that worked there called me "Cashus". A few days later, the store manager called me back to the office, and at this point I figured myself as fired. The store manager asked me what happened, and I explained the full scenario. After a long moment of silence, he looked up at me and told me that this kid had been fired because of his "smart mouth", and said for me not to conduct any further fights in the produce cooler. I agreed, but was shocked at his response, he seemed as if he was greatful that I took him out. Now I am not condoning or promoting fighting here, but as my dad once said, sometimes, you have to defend your own honor. I have not been in too many fights since then, but about a month or so ago, my sister's ex-fiancee was parked in front of my house. Now after he broke up with her, I had tried at all costs to get them back together because she was devistated, and I am very close to my sis. After he refused to resolve thier differences, despite my attempts, I finally told him, to not let me see his ass in this town ever again, or I would kill him. Well after sixth months of my sister having to go through therapy, and dropping out for the semester, I come home from school one night, and here is this joker parked in front of my house. I walk up to the car and I am like, "What the Hell are YOU doing here?", and his response is; "Adam, I am back with your sister, deal with it!" At that point, that bile rose in my stomach, and I said "Deal with it? you hurt her you son of a bitch!". I just walked up to the car and started punching him in the face, several times. At one point, he managed to slide over to the passanger's seat and roll up the window, so I started kicking his car. At that point, I went to the Garage and picked up a shovel, as I was walking back to the car, my sis jumped in, and they sped off. My dad had a long talk with me that night, telling me how I could get arrested for such things, and he was right. So I agreed not to attack him again, but I have to say that it DOES take an awful lot to get me that wound up, and it usually involves a family member or my girlfreind. I have never killed anyone, or put them in the hospital, and I choose to combat this violent nature by seeking a means of escape, namely video games and movies. I encourage video games, even the violent ones, because I feel they provide a necessary pressure valve, and allow us to act out things there, we would not normally do in real life. This is clearly not the case of the Columbine students, but they did not possess the ability to distinguish entertainment from reality. I would encourage my kids to act out their violent fantasies with video games, and make sure they have the ability to distinguish fantasy from reality. Like I said, I do not see myself as a violent person, I see violence as a weekness, that needs to be dealt with accordingly. Fortunately I have a loveing family, and a wonderful girlfreind to calm me down in my time of need. I would encourage all of you to seek the same. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jah Warrior Posted May 20, 2003 Share Posted May 20, 2003 violence & killing are human nature... its not easy to supress millions of years of instincts being passed down through the genes. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Surfnshannon Posted May 20, 2003 Share Posted May 20, 2003 I've been known to kill before Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rogue15 Posted May 20, 2003 Share Posted May 20, 2003 i always feel like killing people. which is why there is a game called Postal 2 to keep me from doing so in reality, seriously, if you've played Postal 2, that game has just about EVERYTHING i want to do but am not stupid enough to do in reality when i'm pissed off. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Darth Groovy Posted May 20, 2003 Share Posted May 20, 2003 Originally posted by Jah Warrior violence & killing are human nature... its not easy to supress millions of years of instincts being passed down through the genes. It is the ability to choose that makes us evolve as a human race. I do not want to be responible for ending anyone's life, because I do not feel it is my place to judge who lives, or who dies. The night I got into it with my sis's ex, I immediatley took solice in my girlfreind who helped me to see the light of day. Basically she told me that fighting does not solve the problem at hand, and that me going to jail, will not end my sister's grief, but only take me away from her, my girlfriend, and my family when I wind up in jail. My girlfriend has a tendancy to open my eyes to so many things, which is one of the things that makes her so damn special to me. On one hand, she understood my angst, and sucessfully managed to open my eyes to the reality. Men cannot exist without women like her, and I am so greatful to have her as my companion. Anybody who do not think women are strong, are full of **** in my opinion, because they have never met anyone like Libby. I love her sooo damn much. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mex Posted May 20, 2003 Share Posted May 20, 2003 I don't really think about hurting anyone unless they really bug me. There is this kid called Ritchie who always calls me chinese boy and I don't even come from japan or china, I come from the United Kingdom and none of my family are, and I am getting angry with him and he calls me weak all of the time. If he keeps on annoying me, he is going to get a punch in his face. Oh.. And a few weeks ago me and my friends were sitting down and I was messing around and joking when one of my friends accidently hit me in the face, he did not mean to do it, but I just snapped and punched him in the face [not very hard] and his glasses flew off and I actually broke them.. They were all bent and the lenses fell out.. At least he forgave me! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sam Fisher Posted May 21, 2003 Share Posted May 21, 2003 Sometimes I want to tear my sisters heads off... bet I don't visualize it. A lot. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thrackan Solo Posted May 21, 2003 Share Posted May 21, 2003 Sometimes I just want to rip this one kid at schools head off. He always has the hottest girlfriend. He is just about the richest kid in my school. He is athletic, always on every team. He gets all the cool things like wakeboards, clothes, etc. And he always makes fun of me. Sometimes while I drift of in Math I visualize ways he can die. Oh yeah and he is mean to his girlfriend but she still is in love with him. I feel sorry for her. The only thing I am better at than he is, is Math, but that just makes me look like a nerd. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ckcsaber Posted May 22, 2003 Share Posted May 22, 2003 I don't like to let my anger build up. If someone pisses me off, I deal with that person. I won't let my anger infest itself in me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
XERXES Posted May 22, 2003 Share Posted May 22, 2003 yes, last year a kid was intentionally driving recklessly around with his little brother and my two best friends (who were also brothers) Well the inexperienced driver (only had his license for a month or two) crashed into a telephone pole and killed his little brother and my two best friends. The driver survived and not a day goes by when I dont swell up in rage thinking about him. I have not seen him since the begening of last summer and I am afraid that if I DO see him again it wont be pretty. The two friends of mine he killed I grew up with all my life Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
C'jais Posted May 22, 2003 Share Posted May 22, 2003 I'm sorry to hear that Xerxes... You need a hug? Sure ya do. *hugs* Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ZBomber Posted May 22, 2003 Share Posted May 22, 2003 Groovy... not trying to be too violent... but your my hero! I've never really wnated to kill anyone (except for 9/11), but I;ve always wanted to beat the crap outa someone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sam Fisher Posted May 22, 2003 Share Posted May 22, 2003 I feel for you XERXES, *hugs him* Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ZBomber Posted May 22, 2003 Share Posted May 22, 2003 Originally posted by Thrackan Solo Sometimes I just want to rip this one kid at schools head off. He always has the hottest girlfriend. He is just about the richest kid in my school. He is athletic, always on every team. He gets all the cool things like wakeboards, clothes, etc. And he always makes fun of me. Sometimes while I drift of in Math I visualize ways he can die. Oh yeah and he is mean to his girlfriend but she still is in love with him. I feel sorry for her. The only thing I am better at than he is, is Math, but that just makes me look like a nerd. So, my friend draws pictures of his Spanish teacher having an affair and dying. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Loki GM Posted May 22, 2003 Share Posted May 22, 2003 I do support fighting because I like fighting I like watching fights to this one time this kid a grade higher then me was just bugging the **** out of me for about half of a semester so I wnt up to him "you wana fight" and he said "okay but ill kick your ass" so the next day at lunch we went to a place to fight and I swear that half of the school had found out about it and showed up there. so we fought I went up to punch him and BOOM I slip on some ice and fall on my ass so I get up real fast and then he falls down this went on for about 2 min then we eventually got off of the ice and bam I couldnt feel it due to the adrenalen but I knew that I hit him he checked his nose and saw that he was bleeding and he started doing the windmill (spinning your arms in circles hoping that you hit the person also a fighting style used by third graders ) so I back up for a little bit then he starts throwing some real punches that I block or dodge but eventually he does hit me but I almost didnt feel it because he hits like a bitch and we keep fighting then eventually its over and another fight starts then I guess someone yelled cops and everyone took off in their cars and because im soooooooooooo lucky the cop car pulls right in front of the car im in and I got put on probation :( then I start hearing from his friends that hes saying he kicked my ass but the funny part is whenever he even bumps me he says "im sorry" and this one time we where both in the same place and someone asked who won and he went silent as all hell :D Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tyrion Posted May 22, 2003 Share Posted May 22, 2003 I've never had the real intention of hurting someone really bad.I do somethings think of ways someone could die, but I never actually try to inflict major pain on them. Of course,I also really never had anything major to fight over,so it may change. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Acrylic Posted May 22, 2003 Share Posted May 22, 2003 Originally posted by XERXES yes, last year a kid was intentionally driving recklessly around with his little brother and my two best friends (who were also brothers) Well the inexperienced driver (only had his license for a month or two) crashed into a telephone pole and killed his little brother and my two best friends. The driver survived and not a day goes by when I dont swell up in rage thinking about him. I have not seen him since the begening of last summer and I am afraid that if I DO see him again it wont be pretty. The two friends of mine he killed I grew up with all my life Oh my god... It would just be like Kjolen dying. Hes my best friend in real life...and if hed die......I dont know how sad I'd be.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jah Warrior Posted May 22, 2003 Share Posted May 22, 2003 Well lemme tell ya, Violence sucks, it sucks more than anything ever. Heres a true story for you that I hope will make you think twice before resorting to violence. Back when i was 21 i split up with my fiancee, she was my first true love so to speak and it really messed me up. I didnt handle it well and i was going round with all this pent up hate and anger. Anyway a few days later i was driving down Bedford embankment and this dude that i went to school with shouted some abuse at me. He was always a cheeky lil bastard. I flipped out and drove up on the pavement and chased him along the path (sidewalk to the yanks LOL) I chased him for about 20-25 yards and then he stopped. I got out of my car and gave him a damn good kicking, I knocked him down with the first punch and carried on kicking the crap out of im while he was on the floor. Fair enough he was being cheeky but he didnt deserve to be kicked to a pulp, ann in hindsight i feel bad about it. The next day the police arrived at the bikeshop i was working at, they arrested me and took me down the cop shop. I was in the cells 3 hours and of course confessed. I didnt tell my folks as I knew they would be heart broken. Anyways i had to go to court, I expected that I'd get a fine for beating this guy up as it was a first offence. The court case was adjourned no less than 6 times and it basically turned me into a nervous wreck. On the final day at court i forgot my shoes, they were still at home. I was still at work and there was no way i was going to court in a pair of trainers. I HAD to call my dad and get him to bring me the shoes. He demanded to know what i had called him out with the shoes for, so i finally told him i was due in Luton Crown court by ,lunch time. I saw the colour drain form his face. He took me to court, he dropped everything to be there at a moments notice. I arrived at court and the rest was abit of a blur really. To cut to the chase I was sentenced to 1 month in Prison. It was so surreal i was expecting to get a fine for £100 or something instead i lost my job, my drivers license and had broken my parents hearts worst of all. Prison was bloody scary, i never got to meet Bubba fortunately, but all the same that didnt stop me from being scared. the dude in the cell next to me had 15 years left of a life sentence (25years). I didnt wash for the entire time i was there, i was so scared of going in the shower. i just used the sink in the cell to try and kepp as clean as i could. When i was released i had no job -no prospects and basically went completely off the rails. I got heavily involved in drugs, i was a borderline alchoholic and was on a one way trip down the pan. I was lucky in the end, my friend helped me get myself together and now although i still dont work (through choice now;)) I'm back on track, but it was a very very close shave indeed. The next time you wanna kick someones arse, think of me and what happened to me and if even one of you good fellas can learn from a mistake that i made then at least some good has come of what happened. Dont judge me for what I've just told you here, I've already been judged and served my time, I just ask that you heed my words. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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