Keyan Farlander Posted October 1, 2014 Share Posted October 1, 2014 I got 0 hours of sleep last night. That's not nearly enough hours. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
edlib Posted October 2, 2014 Author Share Posted October 2, 2014 Video Game Orchestra at work tonight. Long day. Big headaches. But this one might just be worth it all in the end. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rogue15 Posted October 2, 2014 Share Posted October 2, 2014 shin splints got worse. big fml considering there's a pt test supposedly this drill. and i was all ready to ****ing pass it, and it hurts like a mother ****er even in the pushup position...I hope the pain goes away by tomorrow night... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jae Onasi Posted October 2, 2014 Share Posted October 2, 2014 I've taped my ankles and arches when I did taekwondo to prevent shin splints and foot tendinitis. See your doc, of course, and check this site out for more info. Beer recipes: I second the cheese-beer soup and beer-soaked grilled brats. Heaven! Beer stew, beer-marinated venison, beer brisket, beer chili (with beef or turkey), beer buns, nacho cheese dip with beer, beer can chicken, pot roast with veggies and beer, beer batter fried veggies, beer-braised chicken tacos.... damn, I need to go buy some more beer. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rogue15 Posted October 3, 2014 Share Posted October 3, 2014 thanks, jae Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
edlib Posted October 3, 2014 Author Share Posted October 3, 2014 As I predicted, it was a long day full of headaches... But the epic moment where the band got 1,200 people to sing along with "Still Alive" from Portal kinda made it all worth it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rogue15 Posted October 3, 2014 Share Posted October 3, 2014 used the KT tape and got a new pair of shoes...some relief. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
edlib Posted October 5, 2014 Author Share Posted October 5, 2014 My noon to 3am day. 2 shows, completely identical. And it's a shame that I didn't really find the first one all that funny. The second show starts in a bit, and it's going to be painful. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cmdr. Cracken Posted October 5, 2014 Share Posted October 5, 2014 And they weren't even that good, which is terrible. Still haven't heard about the executive admin job within my company. "Soon", I hope. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
edlib Posted October 5, 2014 Author Share Posted October 5, 2014 It was an Adult Swim show... Tim and Eric, and Doctor Steve Brule (John C. Reilly...) There were moments... but in general, I didn't find most of it super funny. But... 600 bucks extra, above and beyond my salary. That's like car repairs and/or a new cell phone right there... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Keyan Farlander Posted October 5, 2014 Share Posted October 5, 2014 And yet another shot right between the eyes! Paging Dr. Walker, Dr. Johnnie Walker... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rogue15 Posted October 5, 2014 Share Posted October 5, 2014 had a good weekend. learning alot. no running for a week, shin splints are still there. thank god i didnt have a pt test. i want my next one to be passing. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
edlib Posted October 7, 2014 Author Share Posted October 7, 2014 Sigh... Talking to my dad has become so difficult. It also doesn't help that I'm still totally exhausted from work the other day. Something's gotta give... But it will probably be me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zoom Rabbit Posted October 7, 2014 Share Posted October 7, 2014 It was an Adult Swim show... Tim and Eric, and Doctor Steve Brule (John C. Reilly...) There were moments... but in general, I didn't find most of it super funny Tried to watch those on Adult Swim--weird and gay. Disturbingly odd. Horriffic to think of revisiting them on a medium that doesn't have an off switch. My beer muffins were a hit, so I'm making more this week. I'll save my beer baked beans and liver with beer braised onions recipes for later in the month. Beer muffins Use any cornbread mix, like the stuff in the blue box. Follow directions, only substituting the water in the recipe with a good stout (like Guinness.) Make honey butter by folding softened butter and honey together, fifty-fifty. Bake in muffin tins. Serve warm, with honey butter. Easy recipe. One could follow it even drinking a Guinness while baking. Note: you must serve with honey butter; without it, they taste kind of weird. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rogue15 Posted October 7, 2014 Share Posted October 7, 2014 all caught up on Sleepy Hollow. Watched the premier of Rebels, it seems good so far. Expansion coming to SWTOR looks pretty sweet...level increased to 60, 2 new planets.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
K_Kinnison Posted October 7, 2014 Share Posted October 7, 2014 I watched SW:Rebels yesterday. Kind of weak, and it really made Kessel seem rather lame. Not to mention you would think there would be something to prevent just anyone from landing and rescuing the miners. Then there was Kanan being dramatic and able to stand in front of 3-4 squads of stormtroopers who were firing their blasters and not get hit once, while he assembled and ignighted his lightsaber Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rogue15 Posted October 7, 2014 Share Posted October 7, 2014 I was expecting worse.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
edlib Posted October 7, 2014 Author Share Posted October 7, 2014 There's very few problems in life that getting 10 or 11 hours sleep can't make seem better. Seriously though... I finally caught up on a lot of missed sleep last night, and as a result I actually feel really really good for a change. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rogue15 Posted October 7, 2014 Share Posted October 7, 2014 got a good grade on my first exam in a class...police operations. kinda nervous about the other classes, too much powerpoint... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rogue15 Posted October 8, 2014 Share Posted October 8, 2014 pizza binge night...lol gotta get my carbs!!! 2 Medium 1-Topping Pizzas, 16 Piece Parmesan Bread Bites, 8 Piece CinnaStix and a 2 Liter of Coke for $19.99 can't go wrong with that deal... gonna watch the clone wars. maybe some movies too. guess i'll study for my exam tomorrow too...almost forgot about that. after that exam, gonna go jump out of a ****ing airplane. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Keyan Farlander Posted October 9, 2014 Share Posted October 9, 2014 Still hate everything. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cmdr. Cracken Posted October 9, 2014 Share Posted October 9, 2014 Keyan: Any thing in particular you hate more than others? You can vent to us, bro. S'ok. Heroes of the Storm is fun. I don't usually play those kinds of games, but it's fairly engaging. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rogue15 Posted October 9, 2014 Share Posted October 9, 2014 keyan: just focus on your own happiness...if it's about getting a relationship, another person is not going to fix that. find something you love doing and stick with it. i still get depressed and hate everything too sometimes, but when I take a step back and look at the bigger picture of my life, I find happiness in things that I am able to do good at, that I've really got it better than alot of people, and am doing much better than I was 3 years ago with someone I thought loved me. The worst feelings in the world are a sense of betrayal, jealousy, etc. you think you know people and they decide to just leave you out in the cold like you never mattered anyway. I'd like to be in a relationship, but I catch myself thinking "is it really worth going through that heartache again?" and find by focusing on school, my friends, and the military that that is my lot in life. I see myself being single for a long time, I just can't find someone that I want to be with. The i don't give a **** attitude seems to work for me. it's better than holding onto anger over things that i have no control over. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
edlib Posted October 9, 2014 Author Share Posted October 9, 2014 Hate is the path to the dark side. Release your anger and feel it flow through you, making you powerful! Life is blah. If I'm not working, I'm probably sleeping. And I'm still not getting all that much sleep... Oh well... I guess it could be worse. In fact I know it could... I've lived worse. Very recently, in fact. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Keyan Farlander Posted October 9, 2014 Share Posted October 9, 2014 Keyan: Any thing in particular you hate more than others? You can vent to us, bro. S'ok. My lack of womans. That's really the only thing I hate. But it ruins everything else. keyan: just focus on your own happiness...if it's about getting a relationship, another person is not going to fix that. find something you love doing and stick with it. i still get depressed and hate everything too sometimes, but when I take a step back and look at the bigger picture of my life, I find happiness in things that I am able to do good at, that I've really got it better than alot of people, and am doing much better than I was 3 years ago with someone I thought loved me. The worst feelings in the world are a sense of betrayal, jealousy, etc. you think you know people and they decide to just leave you out in the cold like you never mattered anyway. The problem with this kind of thinking is that it has one's own pleasure as the meaning of one's life. And it has personal gratification as the purpose of a relationship. I don't want a relationship because of some particular pleasure it will bring me. I want a relationship because I want to get married and have children, and give them all of the things that I have, and make society better by making a good family. This has always been my goal, and I have utterly failed at it. I chose the college major and the career I did specifically so that I could make a good living and provide a good life for a wife and children. Now, I have no complaints my job. My job is awesome. But if all I were going to worry about were my own pleasure, I'd be playing keyboards in a rock band or something. I make a great living so that I will be a practical choice for a husband. I take care of myself so that I will be attractive to someone. I have interesting hobbies and I have traveled to interesting places so that I will be an interesting person to talk to and live with. To be sure, those things are, in many ways, their own reward. Having money, being healthy, having things that you enjoy doing, and having interesting experiences are great. And I enjoy them on that level. And I don't need anyone else to enjoy them in that way. But the point is that there is a greater meaning to these things. A meaning that comes not from getting something, but from giving it. And that definitely casts a shadow over the enjoyment I get from them. I spent many years hunched over a keyboard or a notebook, learning math and science and engineering, many late nights at the office working, many hours learning things and doing things, to get to where I am today, for this purpose. It's been a huge investment. It's been the investment of my entire life so far. But never, in almost 15 years, has any of this mattered to anyone. No one in all that time has wanted to spend even an hour eating dinner with me. And I have no excuses. I can't say, "Oh, I don't make much money, so no one is going to want to date me because of that, but just wait until I get a good job!" or, "Well, I'm pretty overweight, so I'm just not very attractive right now, but just wait until I get in shape!" I have a good job. I'm looking good. I have my hobbies. I've had my experiences. When you've ticked off all the boxes, and still no one is interested, you're faced with the fact that you haven't done anything wrong, taken the wrong path at any point. It's just something intrinsic in you that makes women say, "No, no...not him." And it's not like I have any kind of social problems in general. I have a lot of great friends, and I have very good relationships with all my bosses and coworkers. When stuff is going on, I'm always invited. People talk to me. It's all good. Even with female friends, so it's not something that is putting women off just in general. But every woman I approach for a date turns me down. Every single one. Whether it be someone I know, someone a friend is trying to fix me up with, or just someone I encounter on a dating site. I figured maybe I was doing something wrong. So I started asking female friends to review the messages I was sending to people online. When friends' wives were trying to introduce me to their friends, I would ask them to pay attention and tell me if I did something wrong. Do I smell bad? Do I seem not confidant? Am I talking too much? Being too quiet? The answer is always the same. "No, you did everything just fine. I guess she just wasn't interested." But after 15 years of women "just not being interested," and you can't figure out why, it starts to really wear you down. And like I said, the depressing part is not that I'm missing out on some kind of joy for myself. I have everything that I could need or want, and I don't think there's a person on Earth I would trade places with if I had the chance. It's that I have something to give, something I worked very hard to make. But no one wants it. And I don't know why. So I can live for myself, and have all the enjoyment possible in that. But to me that's a very empty existence. There you go, Crack. I trust that will teach you to invite me to vent. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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